Thursday, August 25th, 2005 • No Comments on Ready To Go
I understand now why people are only expected to give two weeks’ notice when they leave a job. Any more than that and you lose all interest in being helpful/polite/productive/law-abiding. I gave almost a month’s notice. Guess how I’m feeling these days, in my last week at the library? Mostly, I feel like a visitor, benevolently assisting wayward patrons while thinking, “This isn’t my job, you’re lucky I’m being so nice.” Funny how the brain can make a shift from “employed” to “unemployed” before the body has even walked out the door for the last time.
I have cleaned out my files and cabinets which, when you work in the children’s department of a library, means unearthing a fair amount of kid stuff and craft stuff. Some of it is coming home with me, some of it I’m leaving there for future generations of Library Assistants to marvel at and exclaim, “What the hell is this?” It’s the thought that counts, right?
I’m trying to be organized about my leaving, making sure whomever takes my place won’t flounder like I did that first year. Of course, someone has already taken over my hard won book club for kids. I know he’ll do an excellent job, probably even better than me since he has a background in working with children, but it’s difficult to give up something that meant a lot to me. Yes, I know I’m not giving it up, I’m quitting. Still. I’d like the tiniest pretense that I can’t be replaced even if I know better.