Monday, September 21st, 2009 • 3 Comments on Crazy Week Ahead
Crazy is probably an understatement. Jay leaves for an eight month deployment in Dubai next Thursday. Fairy Tale Lust is also due to Cleis Press next Thursday. It seems October 1 is going to be a big day for me—and a day of very mixed emotions.
We are busy with a hundred things to get Jay ready for deployment, to get me ready, to get the nursery and the house ready. Which means he’s actually the busy one. In my case, I do one or two little things, yawn and say I’m tired, then go to bed. Not quite, but that’s what it feels like some days. It’s hard to determine if it’s pregnancy or depression that’s wearing on me, but it’s probably a bit of both. My emotions are close to the surface lately and I feel turned inside out most of the time. Overwhelming doesn’t begin to describe it some days. But I forge on…
I’m well into the editing process of my anthology. I love the stories I’ve chosen and I can’t wait to gush to these author about how much I love their work. I think it’s going to be a terrific collection, but it’s taking everything I have right now (which isn’t much, to be honest) to focus my full attention on it. When I signed on to do this anthology, Jay wasn’t supposed to deploy again this year and my fall was going to be one of writing and editing and nesting. I’m still doing all of those things, but now I have this deployment looming over our heads and it tends to suck the joy out of everything else. I’m trying not to let it be that way—but how do you do that? How does anyone do that? One day at a time, I suppose.
For those of you who have submitted a story to Fairy Tale Lust, please be patient. I hope to e-mail everyone by mid-October, but hopefully you’ll understand if it takes me just a bit longer. Cleis still has final approval over the lineup and I don’t want to be too premature in announcing the table of contents. Despite everything else that’s going on in my life, I really am very excited about this book and I can’t wait to blab all about it. But first, the work has to get done and I have to make it through October 1.
Wish me luck.